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I have planned to do many things in these three weeks, but at last I found I have done nothing. Every day looked like the repetition of yesterday-getting up late, watching DVDs, cooking and playing with my son. Maybe I was too tired before the end of last semester. To pass an important Japanese test, I behaved like a machine, 8+ hours ‘work and 7+hours’ study were what my life was all about. That miserable condition lasted for more than five months and finally the test came. The moment I left the examination room, the only thing I thought was that I have tried my best and now could relax myself no matter whether I could pass or not. Time goes so fast and it has been one and half month since the test, I still indulged in overall relaxation. I had planned to read some books about the theories of western drama from the middle of July and finished revising my paper in the end of July, but I just cant enter the stateHowever, I cant spend the next half of my summer holiday muddleheaded like this

Last night ,technically,it’s like the dawn of this morning,I had a rather long and insane dream.Commonly,most of this kind of memories won’t appear in my mind again.But this morning when I woke up,I told of it to my mother immediately.So until now I still could review it precisely. The dream is like that: I was walking through a corridor of one teaching building of my school with my textbooks in search of a proper classroom to go over my subject.There is something weird that several rows of desks and chairs were set in the left side of the corridor and I remember one suite of them is not taken.So I decide to occupy it. After settling down,I find a few of my classmates(should be that three ones in Development zone still now) were there too.During the dream I feel strange as well.So I ask them”what are you guys doing here?”One tell me that”There is a exam coming over for three of us”~~********~~After some formalities we decide to visit the house of one of them to have dinner together. Then something more ridiculous happened~~~~

When I was in Middle School, the first time I begin to learn English, I realized that I was interested in it and I like it very much. At that time, I always dreamed that one day I can speak it fluently and can go abroad. That is just a day-dreaming of a young girl in her 13 years old. When I went to the Senior School, I became more realistic. I just wanted to be admitted to the university. But I did not do well in the lessons, especially the sciences courses. So I just was admitted to a college. I spent 3 years in the Qinhuangdao Institute of Technology. It is a good time for me to learn my favorite English. I spent most of the time in the dorm to learning. I got CET-6 and BEC-Vantage. I think it just can comfort me a little when I was thinking about my learning life. I gave up to further my education before I left the college because I did not want to ask money from my parents. I told myself that oneday I must go to the university to learn more about English, of course by myself. Now, I get on my work now and begin to earn money. But in my heart deeply, I always dreaming about to further my education. And what’more, Beijing Foreign Languages University is the best place that I am still yearning for. A few days ago, I find there is a online education in its information. But I do not know how about its effects. I will consult it and find more about it. If so, I will have a try.

this noon , when i was going to sleep, i caught a call from the leader of the office, telling me to take 2 cakes for him. i did as what he asked. when i gave them to him, he asked “how much?”. then the answer: “4 yuan”. but i was surprised by the following words, that is “thank you! you are so kind to pay for them. but i am ashamed for that. because as a teacher i should have treated you ! ” oh my god! i realized that he must mishear the “4 yuan” for “no yuan”! so dramatic mishearing! at last i had to pay for the cake! interesting!

being informed in the web of renren , i knew mother of my classmatd died of cancer sep.30. i didn’t know how to comfort her. it reminded me of the time when dad went away. no word worked at that time , just let the tears flow.may be the lie could make sense that he had nothing to do but leaving us, because it was doomed that our family couldn’t be intact. and at that time every night ,what ever i saw, i thought it was dad coming back to visit me. it was the lie which i made to cheat myself. but i still couldn’t be out of the shadow till now.a mum went away because of cancer, maybe it is not so sudden as the going of my dad. but the girl must be sad and miss her mum very much. say no word and just let her alone to cry and miss!

the mid-autumn day is over and i am back again. the feelings in mid-autumn is not only happy but complex. i have talked about happiness before. but now it is different. for me the happiest thing is the happiness from my family. i will be sad if there is any debate or disagreement between families. but the night before my leaving home, i got confused and depressed.  because of the age , my elder sister decided to marry a boy who was not so good to fit my sister in mum’s eyes. so mum didn’t make enough preparation for the wedding and it was hard to promise. they were discussing when i left home. i didn’t know how and what to do. just unhappy!

today i went shopping and bought a new hat. tomorrow i am going back home . the day after tomorrow is the traditional festival —-mid-autumn day, and i will enjoy it with dear families . two days after tomorrow i will have to be back for part-time job. these days many has discussed happiness on the web. different people, different ideas. for me ,at present enjoying mid-autumn day with mum is happy , though there is only 3 days. 

this morning, on the way to the libray, i got the phone from the collage director. she asked me to gether someone to do something.  it was about 8:00 at that time. then i called some of classmates . the responses are either no booting or no answer. at last a senior promised to go . i was a little angry so decided to close the press and not to answer their questions. when going to back to the dormitory i open my phone. what i received was the disagreement from the one who promised to go. but time was past. i would forget it.it was 10:20, 40 min earlier than the lunch. so i went back to the dormitory with a little angry. and decided no to say hello to anyone and not go for lunch with them. at last i was determind not to have lunch.however, i am hungry now. hey! i had better to relax and have lunch! after all, most did not mean to refuse my call, there must be some reasons. forgive them and have lunch!

when i was a child, i liked doing anything as what i wanted.take qurrel for example, i tried to win each time, even cansuitry. because of the strengh, few kids would like to play with me. then i decided to change and tried to consider in other’s point of view.at present, i am used not to forcing others to do anything. in my mind,do something we just can or can’t. there is no middle state. but not everyone agree with me. in other’s view, if being pleasing the one who decide the result , his or her demands may be met. these who like to do something carefully and asking for other to help them always think for themselves and take the help for granted. if their demand could not be met, they would be disappointed and complaining.today, one friend went to copy some material , but the printing shop was too busy to finish it today. so the girl begged the boss and i helped to persuade the boss. at last , she decided to help us. but when knowing the demand of my friend, i found it was so hard and would take too much time, but she, my friend was always saying it was not too much , just few pages. oh , my god, if me, i must can’t stand and rufuse to help her. however, the girl boss promised her , and did that at once. but, when her ask was finished, she asked to copy another 30 pages. this time , the boss was not satisfied, and refused to do because she was really busy. but my friend insisted that the boss should do as she promised and go on to copy her pages. she was angry too, because she though she paid for it .in fact i can’t agree with her. because at first we begged for the first help , there is no business about money, they are really busy. so whatever we should thank for her help rather than ask more because you pay for that.  

how long have you been talking in a day? as for me , 6 hours is normal , 12 hours is the most. i am a part-time physical teacher in a educational institution. every weekend is my work day. i have four students in one institution and 1 in another , and each one has a 2-hour class, so it is 10 hours now. before the entrance exam to college ,  i had to spend more than 2 hours to help my cousin in his physics.today , it is just 6 hours but in two institutions, which means being talking for 4 hours , and another 2 hours. a little tired and having no appetite for anything. i need a break, just have a rest!